lost in the ocean
drowning in those waves
swimming to find that security
but I've already been trained to bleed the right way.
and then a deluge turns to something torrential
my blood mixes with the water now.
. . .
tonight, the words "**** **" lose meaning; from the swaying of the ocean to the boundless ways I could have said no.
so let me just get this straight-
that's my body...? dead and covered in cuts?
But it looks really peaceful...really really peaceful.
but-
the silence broke, just to follow the string back to...
that place-
that time-
that feeling of endlessness.
and I'm lost trying to find the bottom of the sea; all I seem to find are archaic echoes which vaguely look like people.
statues..
or maybe......
silhouettes.
or flames...
and somewhere deep enough; so far below the surface that not even light could reach, so far that static turned to bliss; it spilled out from everywhere. and I could no longer drown.
everything feels weightless here:
- drops of blood
- words
- skewering of insides
- that light discoloring of skin when a bruise starts to form.
mhm